Reading over my blog posts, I see that I keep struggling with the same issues over and over and over – my weight, intimacy with God, feeling inadequate. I write posts that sound like I’m communing with God and have it all together or that I’m going to lose weight THIS time and I’m prepared.
And here I am, months later, back in the same place I started. It is as if I am riding on a toy train – the track has a varied landscape but inevitably, though I think I’m moving forward, I find myself back at the same station time and time again.
Every time I “start again” I think, this time! This time will be different! This time will bring me to a new place, a new adventure, and new plane of life that I never expected to experience. I will grow, I will be stronger, I will “have a grip.”
And instead, here I am, back at the Centerville Station, just like the people in this Twilight Zone episode, Stopover in a Quiet Town.
Perhaps that is why this is one of my favorite episodes. It is the story of my emotional and spiritual life. Every time I think I’m on my way, that I’m moving forward, I end up back in Centerville again.